Saturday, December 27, 2008

The pretender (part 2)

The following are the lyrics from Jackson Browne's The Pretender

Im going to rent myself a house
In the shade of the freeway
Im going to pack my lunch in the morning
And go to work each day
And when the evening rolls around
Ill go on home and lay my body down
And when the morning light comes streaming in
Ill get up and do it again
Say it again

I want to know what became of the changes
We waited for love to bring
Were they only the fitful dreams
Of some greater awakening
Ive been aware of the time going by
They say in the end its the wink of an eye
And when the morning light comes streaming in
Youll get up and do it again

Caught between the longing for love
And the struggle for the legal tender
Where the sirens sing and the church bells ring
And the junk man pounds his fender
Where the veterans dream of the fight
Fast asleep at the traffic light
And the children solemnly wait
For the ice cream vendor
Out into the cool of the evening
Strolls the pretender
He knows that all his hopes and dreams
Begin and end there

Ah the laughter of the lovers
As they run through the night
Leaving nothing for the others
But to choose off and fight
And tear at the world with all their might
While the ships bearing their dreams
Sail out of sight

Im going to find myself a girl
Who can show me what laughter means
And well fill in the missing colors
In each others paint-by-number dreams
And then well put out dark glasses on
And well make love until our strength is gone
And when the morning light comes streaming in
Well get up and do it again
Get it up again

Im going to be a happy idiot
And struggle for the legal tender
Where the ads take aim and lay their claim
To the heart and the soul of the spender
And believe in whatever may lie
In those things that money can buy
Thought true love could have been a contender
Are you there?
Say a prayer for the pretender
Who started out so young and strong
Only to surrender

I had originally thought this might be a good theme song for my pretend writer career but after looking at the words I thought this is perhaps the Anti-Theme song for my pretend career as a writer. The main character in the song has the blues because he gave up on his dreams and now lives his life as a pretender, pretending to care, pretending to have spirit, pretending to be alive.

Nope - not for me baby - this song gives me the blues just thinking about giving up on my dream of being a writer, zen master or writing zen master. I might be a happy idiot but I won't be an unhappy idiot. I have a dream of making people smile and think and maybe just maybe getting people to be better at living. Since that is my goal (at least one of them ) I think I have to keep the faith and keep moving in my pretend directions and sooner or later I will get there - I now I will.
I know this might sound silly and pretentious but you should check out my other blog -
Positively Frank
that is down right crazy.
Until tomorrow - keep writing and keep dreaming and keep pretending.

1 comment:

Soulsearcher said...

"Life is a stage and we are the actors." Who said that? or something like that...? Aren't we all pretenders sometimes? I think it's just a way of figuring out what's real or important to oneself. I guess it's okay if you don't truly give up on your dreams. I hope that you won't give up, Frank, because you really ARE a writer, even if you haven't (yet) written a best selling novel. Your writing does make a difference--makes people think, laugh, and feel. And much more...